I like how I actually apologized to Vanessa because I sincerely am over it, and she started what she did last night.

I'm so over it that I said sorry to officially close a bad part of my life. I'm healed and ready to move on and she can't accept the past. I'm so bothered by that. Here, I've put all this effort to be kind and humble myself for my wrongs, and put effort into my own healing and forgiving him for hurting me. It's not easy to forgive when someone doesn't say sorry, but I looked inside of myself and to God and made it happen, and she just has to push and pull and make it seem as though it isn't over.

I hate that I reacted to her. I hate that I wasn't drunk, and came off as the typical drunk Lauren out of my rage for her and her cousin getting in my face. I hate that everyone can say I won this, but I can't say that I did because I reacted and let my trashy side come out of me.

To top it off, he calls me and texts me. She sees something, starts calling me, and texting me this morning to jump down my throat when it was HIM. So I do her the favor by forwarding her what he says because I don't care about him, and I don't care to cover for him, and she has the nerve to say, "How do I know if those are real?"

Anyone who knows him knows how he is. And plus, why would I take the time to make those fake texts with times included?

I want to be left alone as far as he goes to prove that it's done and she's making it worse for me, for him, for herself, and for everyone.

I guess it's another test to prove my progress.