Cause Girls Don't Cry...??

"I would break down at your feet
And beg forgiveness
Plead with you
But I know that it's too late
And now there's nothing I can do

So I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes...

...I would tell you
That I loved you
If I thought that you would stay
But I know that it's no use
That you've already
Gone away

Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I THOUGHT THAT YOU NEEDED ME MORE, MORE, MORE...

Now I would do most anything
To get you back by my side
But I just keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes..."

Wednesday

-Woke up to get ready for work, but didn't end up working. I have $0 to my name. =[ I'm under financial stress to the max. I have no one other than God to thank for my parents supporting me. And I have no one other than God to thank for such a great father. He's the only one who works and works SO hard that he's able to support my family. Like, sometimes I get floooored that HE does this for me, my mom, my sister... Like I look at all that I have and I have EVERYTHING I need and EVERYTHING my heart has desired and HE worked for it to give it to me. The least I could do is make him proud by educating myself. I swear one of my top two goals in life is to PAY for his way to Europe... To Normandy to be exact. It just blows my mind that I don't have $5 for gas, yet he's able to pay for all the cars, the house, groceries... Everything. I love my dad. He's what a MAN is. Whoever I date has a lot to live up to.
-Cleaned the house for my mom, and watched Knocked Up.
-Picked up Bonnie and we went to Target and then to my brother's apartment complex to go swimming and tanning. It was an excellent visit. Sometimes I think we have the same brain. Our thoughts just connect and bounce off from one another. We talked about God and politics and psychology.
-Took Bonnie home so she could take her brother to work, and I went home.
-Washed my car.
-Got ready to go to Neil's for Danny's birthday.
-Oscar picked me up, and we went to Neil's. Then Danny and Yvette met us, and later on, Bolin and Andy met us. It was SO fun. Yvette and I talked about God, babies, and LOVE. My favorite topics! And Danny asked Oscar to be his best man, and we all almost cried. I was so grateful to get to be there for that. Seriously. It was like a wedding proposal. Hah. And then my friend's brother was there and we sat at the bar and talked and he bought me a drink.
-Oscar took me home and we sat in the car and talked about love and politics. Haha. I'm like a politician now. I love Oscar! He's my best friend.

Cherry Waves

In a sea of waves
We hug the same plank
Just as I had rehearsed it over in my brain


If the waves suck you in, and you drown

If like you should sink down beneath
I'll swim down. Would you? Would You?

You hang anchors over my neck
I liked it at first
But the more you laughed, the crazier I came

And the waves suck you in, and you drown

If like you should sink down beneath
I'll swim way swim down. Would you?

Is that what you want?
You...
Well that's what you've got

Wave...after...wave...

If like you should sink down beneath, I'll swim down,
Would you?

Is that what you want?
With you
Is this what you want?
With you, you

Escape...below...

I don't care about tomorrow...

or anything else. I just care that you're here now.