In one of our conversations...

...we decided to speak as though we weren't going to ever part. The way something was worded (I forget what) left us open for an ending, and we didn't want that. We decided to speak in terms of forever.Or the fact he forwarded me a text he sent to AB saying "Hurry and find me a job so I can move back and marry Lauren." Ugh. I don't know why I think of our conversations.
I guess it's what I need to do to decide if he's worthy of my friendship. I was nice to him today, but maybe I shouldn't be. It's all so fucked up.

I've got nowhere to go
I'm gonna miss you
I'm gonna miss you
When you're gone
She says, I love you
I'm gonna miss you
And your songs

And I said, please
Don't talk about the end
Don't talk about how
Every living thing goes away
She said, friend

All along I thought
I was learning how to take
How to bend not how to break
How to live not how to cry
But really
I've been learning how to die
I've been learning how to die

Hey everyone
The grave is lazing me
He takes our body slow

And I said, please
Don't talk about the end
Don't talk about how
Every living thing goes away
I said, friend,
All along I thought
I was learning how to take

How to bend not how to break
How to live not how to cry
But really
I've been learning how to die
I've been learning how to die
Die, die
I've been learning how to die
I've been learning how to die

It's been a hard day, harder nights.

"Me too. This is hard."

If you were confident in your decision, wouldn't you not need to say it was hard? I don't know. I could be wrong.

What are the chances...

...that they'd both text me today?

What a weird day.

One, I'm not sure if I wanna hear from due to my devastated state, and the other I'm happy to hear from cause I just need to know he's ok. I normally don't hear from him unless he's drunk, so I was quite surprised being that it was before 8pm and I got a "How u doing?' Normally it's like a "Yo." or a "Hey." or the infamous, "You whack.".

Hm.

When does

the pain subside?