La Douleur Exquise

"That's when I first realized it. I was in an S&M relationship with Mr. Big.
In love relationships, there is a fine line between pleasure and pain.
In fact it's a commom belife that a relationship with out pain is a relationship not worth having.
To some, pain implies growth.
But how do we know when the growing pains stop and the "Pain-pains" take over?
Are we masochists or optimists? If we continue to walk that fine line?
When it comes to relationships, how do you know when enough is enough?! "

"On the way home I was furious. Not with Big, with myself.
I was the real sadist. He might be the one with the whip, but I was the one who tied myself up.
Tied myself to a man who was terrified of being tired down."


"Did I ever really love Big or was I addicted to the pain? The Exquisite pain of wanting someone so unattainable."

Mr. Big: " Hey, what you doing over there?"
Carrie: " Go to Paris. I'm not gonna come. Lets not pretend we're something we're not. It's ok. "
Mr. Big: "Come to bed"

"I wanted to go to him, but I felt like I was tied to the chair.
Some part of me was holding me back, knowing I had gone too far. Reached my limit.
And just like that, I had untied myself from Mr. Big.
I was Free. But there was nothing exquisite about it. "

Easily one of the most liberating episodes of Sex and the City.