I pull away from people I'm closest too when I am going through stuff.

I am sorry I do that.

Sometimes it's easier to clean myself up without my close friends. It's like I can define myself as Lauren, and not as anyone else. It's just easiest this way. I'm sorry though.

I do care, it's just hard to care when I have nothing to give when I'm just trying to use all my strength to pull myself through.

I desperately need school to start, as well as my job. I need my mind to be consumed.

I hate feeling like I've lost something. But I did.

I don't..

...like waking up. Sometimes it makes me more sad than when I fell asleep.

I'm 10x more sensitive to things when I sleep and when I wake-up.

I'm more sensitive to love. I'm more sensitive to getting attached. I'm more sensitive to noise. And am more sensitive to stress.

I have to sleep peacefully to wake up peacefully.

When I sleep with heartache, I wake up with it 10x worse.

No more naps, geese.