The Chills

Your tongue is sharp
but I miss the taste of it

You said time heals
there's not enough of it

The lessons are too cruel to keep
to lock the door to hide the key

To hear you cast a spell so sweet
to still have hours left to sleep

Your fear is crowdin'
And there is still
no place
for someone
like me to fill

Don't know about luck
but I know the lack of it

Don't know about luck
but I'm losing track of it

The lessons are too cruel to keep
to lock the door to go to sleep

I know that time until it kills
You're giving me the chills

Your fear is crowdin'
and there is still
No place
for someone
like me to fill


The lessons are too cruel to keep
to lock the door to hide the key

to hear you cast a spell so sweet
and still have hours left to sleep

Your fear is crowdin'
And there is still
no place
for someone
like me to fill


The lessons are too cruel to keep
to lock the door to go to sleep

I know that time until it kills
You're giving me the chills

I know that time until it kills

you're giving me the chills
you're giving me the chills
you're giving me the chills

Sex and the City

Alright, so I saw the MOVIE tonight. I have to admit that I loved it. I'm a sucker for that show, and the life Charlotte leads, and the one Carrie longs to, and Carrie's relationship with Mr. Big.

You see, we all have that Mr. Big. That Mother-Fucker-Big, but the man you just can't live without, and somehow, I find comfort in seeing their relationship evolve, and seeing how common it is. I mean, if they make show, after show, after show about their relationship, it reeeeally must be, because why else would women want to watch it. They wouldn't.

We, as women, need to hear that things like that are normal, and happen, and can be worked through, whether it is fiction or reality. And we need someone, or something, or anything for that matter TO relate to us. It enables us to hold onto some sick and twisted hope to escape from our own reality, sometimes.

What I mean is... Here, there is this guy who may or may not love you, but you feel as though you need them to, so you hold onto these maybes, shoulds, coulds, and somedays, and Big and Carrie give reason to think that in that someday, they'll be yours, and those maybes, shoulds, and coulds come to life. And when you have that real-life Big, you know that deep down they love you and need you, and sometimes you have to hold onto that hope to get through loving them. It's like if you love them enough, they'll come around. Or maybe they won't, though they know they should and they know so well they feel it in their bones... In their very core.

I can't say I have a Big, and I can't say that I don't. I have no hope of this love from my Big coming to life, but I also believe we'll forever be plagued by these "Bigs", because we all have them, or have had them... And it may feel as though go away, but sometimes they haunt your dreams, so is it like they really are supposed to remain in your life? And will they come around as Big does?

Sex and the City enables us to use our imaginations as we want. And it sets a fire in us... A desire, a passion for love. For love and sex. And for money and success. And it helps set goals of who you want to be, and who not to be, and what to do, and what not to do. It's like Cosmopolitan put in action. Its good stuff.

It just makes you pray that Big does really go away, or does come around.

Friday

-Woke up in a very bitter way, and had the most awkward experience with my parents. Like you don't even know.
-Went to work.
-Went to Wal-Mart with Maily to get poker chips, and such, for Shawn's (her son) graduation party tomorrow.
-Met Johnny and Matthew at P.F. Chang's. It was very romantic. We took shots. Matthew was extra funny this evening... And it's a shame that I forgot all that he said that was funny. Liz met us, and I spilled my drink all over her. Sorry, Liz.
-Went to the grocery store so Matthew could get beer.
-Went to Rancho 16 to go see Sex and the City. We had 2 hours to kill before it started.
-Went to Wal-Mart so Matthew could get more beer.
-Had a car party with Peter, Bjorn and John.
-Went into the movie. It was 2 and a half hours long. Intennnnse.
-Drove back to The River so Matthew and I could pick up our cars. Fought with Johnny.
-Now I am home. Pretty good night.