Funny...

..watching myself evolve.

I finally took out my nose piercing. I've had it for 2 years and 2 months, and I'm over it. It's all more than just a hole though.

It's like closure from my defiant past.

Yeah, I look good with piercings, and yeah, I like they way they look on people, but at the same time, they can reflect some self-loathing going on.

It's funny looking at pictures of myself with my septum, Monroe, and my nose. I looked good, but not me. I'm not that girl. I'm the pretty natural brunette who is going to be the lady who wears a new black dress everyday with Chanel glasses.

I'm kind of sad that I'm going to let it close, especially because I look really cute with a nose ring, but I'm tired of being silly. I'm ready to keep the pearl earrings in my ears and not look confused. Pearl earrings with tons of piercings just doesn't fit.

I'm ready to be the classy lady who's taken home to mothers. I used to be that girl, and sometime at 16, I got confused and hated myself, and covered myself with big hair and lots of make-up. I really did look pretty, and my hair was beautiful jet black, but I was so fake looking. I love looking fake, I really do. But why when I look so nice not fake?

I guess it's a sign of maturity. No one wants to take a girl home to their mother looking as made up as I did.

You used to not even be able to see the color of my eyes cause I'd pack on so much eyeliner. It always looked like I was ready to go out somewhere. And it took soo long to get ready that I really wouldn't get anywhere.

Once my hair gets really long, I intend to dye it back to black though. I can't wait to have long black hair with a heavy straight across bang. Can't wait!

I don't know. I'm just pleased with how I see myself now. Sure, I'm still confused about a lot, and a lot about myself, but I don't hate myself. And by wearing less make-up, and looking less fake, I think it shows I like myself and I don't need to hide under so much.