Blah.

It makes me really sad that as much of not a virgin I am, I still feel like one. I'm so impure, yet completely pure, but no one other than me sees my purity.

In no way do I try to wait til marriage, yet some of me feels like I do, and I have this innocent untouched part of me left. But again, no one sees it.

I feel old, used, and tainted, and sometimes I don't. And then I think about how some people think that, and feel like it's pointless to try.

I don't know what my point is. I guess I just wish I waited until marriage, and was still trying to wait. I have all the hopes and dreams of an unwed virgin.

I wish I didn't know so much otherwise it'd be a lot easier to start all over.