Honestly

I'd rather be

dead
   [ded]
adjective, -er, -est, noun, adverb
–adjective
1. no longer living; deprived of life: dead people; dead flowers; dead animals.


I don't think I have ever felt heartbreak until now. I swore up and down I knew what it felt like to have my heart broken into millions of pieces, but this...

Nothing compares to this.

Nothing compares to this ache, this brokeness, this emptiness, this bed of lies.

My foundation isn't so solid anymore. My home isn't home. I'm done for. My hopes for life are out the window. My past means nothing. My life feels over.

I thought I knew death, but this is death. Right here. Our past. Our memories. Our travel. Our safety. Our bond.

We are dead.