Thursday

-Woke up and played with Nicholas before he went back home. My life feels like it's put on hold when he leaves. I guess seeing him grow and change enables me to watch the days go by... Like I can really feel it, and accept it. It's weird. I stop letting the days blur and combine, and all that.
-Went to work, and slaved me ass away. Nah, not really. Very busy day. One of those color, shampoo, color, shampoo, colorrrr, and breathe if I get a chance. Good day though.
-Thought about going to the mall or to Target, but decided to go home.
-Picked Tess up from her friend's house and took her on a dinner date. She loves me, and I need to be there for her more. I hate the idea of her growing up with this bitterness towards me that she already has. I was far too mean to her while she was growing up. She still is, and I will hopefully be better to her.
-Went home and knoooocked out, but woke up here and there. And had a few ironic events take place. Two people decided to chime into my life after disappearing for a bit. Although, one isn't as dramatic considering it'd only been like a week.
-Had a visit with "Mr. Big." And one of our greatest visits, I must say. It's like I'd filled myself with only negative feelings towards him, and was able to rid myself of them because I was reminded of his humor and the things I'd grown to love. And this time, I was able to just appreciate it all, and not mix myself up into it. And he finally spilled some guts. He would rarely do it before, and I'd always wanted him to. Bad timing, I guess, but then also, all timing is perfect timing so I can't worry about the timing and can only say, "It was nice." And necessary.
-Went to bed with some peace.