Maybe

Maybe if I start humbling myself, I'll stop being so high strung.
Maybe if I start being sober, I'll be able to remember conversations,
Maybe if I stop getting so scared of awkward silences, I'll be more social.
Maybe if I step out of my comfort, I'll be more comfortable.
Maybe if I make the first step, the second and third will follow.
Mayeb if I stop worrying about needing to be social, I'll make more money.
Maybe if I make more money, I'll do more that'll make me happy.
Maybe if I'm more happy, I'll live better.
Maybe if I stop worrying about being embarrassed, they'll come around.
Maybe if I try to make a difference, I won't need to change.
Maybe if I keep trying, I'll see a result.
Maybe I'll be happy.
Maybe I'm ready.

I'm ready to just let go.
What's the worst that could happen?
Obviously nothing went right before cause God forbid I make some moves.
If everyone was the way I AM, nothing would go anywhere.
I can give it a shot.
What won't kill me will only make me stronger, right?

And I mean, I don't need to change.. I just need to put fourth some effort myself to better things and life. That's all...